It was the fall of 1992, and I was 24 years old when my Spirit Guides first told me I needed to choose whether I wanted to keep on living, or die. I was working night shift at a hotel, and as business was very slow in the middle of the night, I would pass the time channeling. I was asking my usual mundane questions, like "Am I ever going to find a better job?", and "Is this guy right for me?", when I was offered the opportunity to die. At first I thought I had heard wrong, and so I asked what they were talking about. My guides said, "You are about to enter a very long phase of your life that will be incredibly difficult and painful, and so you have the opportunity to leave now if you feel you are not ready to go through this." To say the least, I was shocked, and then panicked. Couldn't they just stick to simple stuff like romance and career? Geez! I was given no other information than this, so being 24, and just beginning my life, of course I said I would like to go on living. I hadn't prepared to die yet; hadn't even thought about it. Well, about two weeks later, I began what turned out to be a twenty-one year stretch of pure hell. Interestingly enough, I was ready for death at particularly difficult times, but looking back, I knew I was clearing incredible amounts of karma and evolving spiritually. I knew I had come into this life to focus on spiritual growth, above all else.
Just as my life was starting to get good, my second, I'll call it "Death Doorway", was offered again in the fall of 2013. Once again, I was told I could leave or stay. After that last stint, I have to say I was contemplating taking the easy way out (even though I knew if I died my sisters would kill me). My guides were so "helpful" with information again, as they said, "Be sure to make the right choice." The right choice? Hmm.... I actually pondered it for awhile this time, as I knew if I had to go through such extreme experiences again, I didn't have the strength of spirit to endure. I had never talked about any of this with anyone, but I decided to confide in one of my psychic friends, and she had been getting ultimatums as well. So, I was not the only one. I had always felt that we all have doorways that we set up to leave if things got too difficult, but most people are unaware, not tuning into their guidance - and I can't blame them, because who would really want to know this kind of thing? Well, I decided to stay again, because I didn't go through that twenty years of hell for nothing. I was told I made the right choice.
My final doorway...I was told on March 7th of this year that in 3 years, 5 months and 6 days, I would have achieved what I wanted in this life, and could once again leave or stay at that time. If I stayed, I would live another 50 years if I wanted to, and that it would be very important to a certain individual's path if I did stay. I would also be of much needed help to others. When 2017 gets here, I'll get to decide...not really something I'm looking forward to...but I'll keep you posted.
Do you have an experience with Death Doorways, or had experiences where you felt that you should have died but didn't?